June 24,2010

Hi,

I hope everyone is doing well.   As for me I am having a bad day .  Well I can not say bad just overwhelmed and full or concern for my father in law.   He is in alot of pain with his back and can barely walk.  We are waiting for the Doctor to call back.  Most likely going to emergency.

But I guess what I wanted to talk about is family. If anyone has problems with family member and are on the outs.  Please make amends and let it go especially when someone is dying of cancer or another disease. Life is to short and we need to enjoy life one day at a time.  In my view and it is only my view.  If you never clear the air with that person , you will have to live with the guilt, knowing that you did not make the amends and tell them you loved them .   There are also times when you have to put those feelings aside and be there for the person who is struggling with an illness.  And be a family.

My brother in-law and his wife are on the outs with us and my husbands father who has cancer.  I have tried many times sending emails , texts  etc to let us put our differences aside for my father in law and be there for him .  But I never got a response from them .  I know how much it hurts my father in law because we are all not a family.  Dad had said several times after I leave it is only you  to brothers and you need to be family.   It hurts that I can not fix this for him.  Not knowing what we did to begin with for our families to separate.  Asking to know what  we did or I did and not getting an answer.  Asking for forgiveness for what has been done and not know what has been done.

I have my own beliefs  about God .   In the Lord's prayer it says for us to forgive those who trespasses against us as God forgives us our trespasses .  Hello forgive and move on.   Life is to short.  Shoot if I did not forgive people I would be a miserable person .   Always complaining about who did what to me and I will never forgive them. .  There may be certain circumstances in persons life they may not be able to forgive.  But in most of them we should be able to forgive.

I had to stop writing this blog earlier because we did  take Dad to the emergency,  They ran a Cat Scan and gave him new medicine and he has  a really bad muscle spasms in his back.   He is doing alot better tonight and was able to go home.   He even wanted In and Out Burger and I was not going to deny him of that.   I did have one also  but I was living on 2 pieces of toast and coffee and water.  Not my normal way of eating. Back to Shakeology and working out tomorrow.    

Granted not all of you will may agree with me.  But thank you for letting me express my feelings.

Just for today: I will strive to accept others as they are. I will try not to judge others. I will focus on the principles of love and acceptance.